Kitra Cahana
This is what you get from good parenting. This woman is only 17 years old. Very strong view, and great images. Impressive.
Dr Brene Brown; Gratitude
Going overboard on the videos, but the latter part of this four minute video is excellent. Everyone knows this woman from the Ted Talks, but this video is really good too.
Stephen Jenkinson, author
Attended a film last night, titled “Griefwalker”, about author Stephen Jenkinson. And then today, an all-day workshop with him. I made this portrait after the workshop, on the grounds of Scarritt Bennett. You can stream the entire film here, for free.
(Thank you Michelle, Kristy, Kelly).
Update: Here is Kristy’s blog post about the workshop that we attended on Saturday.

Portrait of Stephen Jenkinson.

My grandparents on my mother’s side. Muhlenberg County, Kentucky. My grandfather, Harley, was a rural postal carrier and farmer and deacon at his church. My grandmother, Rena, was a gardener, manager of the home, and raised four girls. If you’ve ever done work with Stephen Jenkinson, you’ll understand why I’m including this image.
Sappy Admission (Breakthrough)
I never sleep any more, it’s now about 4am. I’m lying in bed and watching an art documentary on Art21, and i hear my phone beep. It’s an email from a photographer friend who lives in Paris. We send each other b/w images back and forth. Anyway, tonight, the link is to this set of images of dogs and cats. Most people would roll their eyes and laugh; we’ve all seen the images on Facebook. But something just hit me tonight — this quality of intimacy, and love, and tenderness is what I want in my photographs. People can laugh all they want. In the end, it always comes back to love and caring.
Below is one of the photographs on that Facebook page. I saw this particular image and my jaw dropped. Perfection.
I just had to write this down, and go public with it. I’m afraid that I’ll go back to sleep and forget this realization.
I have this good friend, and she has a wonderful puppy. A rescue. I watch them together, wrestling and laughing and hugging, and it just takes my breath away.
I also have an idea for a new body of work — of mothers and children. Again, intimacy and kindness and connection. The motivation and history behind that is a whole other conversation entirely. Lisa Donovan and Maggie will be first in line.
I’m going to do the pictures. I’ll survive the laughter.
Thank you K.R. and K.B.R.
And Serena.
And Allegra.
And Diana and Waller and PoppySeed.
And Tricia and Alison too, related to a completely different topic — trying to make sense of the chaos of the storm aftermath in the northeast, and make a contribution.
All of this reminds me of this amazing song (live version) too. Here’s the studio version. Lyrics here.
“Art is a wound turned into light”. — George Braque
“I wonder if this is how people always get close: they heal each other’s wounds; they repair the broken skin.”
― Lauren Oliver, Pandemonium
“What people think of me is none of my business. My job is to live my life by my own values”. — Some smart man in Recovery.
Gratitude today. Planets are aligning.
Driving with Tara Brach (again)
I went to Kentucky today, to check on my mother. I got her in the car, and got her to Walgreens to get a Flu Shot. Also got her leaves raked out to the street.
The drive is almost exactly one hour, which ironically, is the length of an average Tara Brach podcast. I listened to a good one today on the way up, and it hung with me, so i repeated it again on the way home. It usually takes me twice, for it to really sink in and hit home. This one is dated September 12th, 2012, and titled “The Freedom of Yes”.
Several highlights from this podcast:
#1: “I’m going to ask you to pick times when you go past your toleration point, and we’re going to examine some. The content of the mind is usually judgement or blame, and the mind is panicking. There’s a rigidity; we can no longer plan on how to respond best to move things toward healing. We’re in really old conditioning.”
#2: “In any moment when we’re focusing our attention on ‘You’re wrong; you should be different’, we’re arguing with Reality. In those moments we are not able to access our resourcefulness. Deep empowerment, deep access to your wisdom — not possible if you’re blaming the other person.”
#3: Poem by Kaveri Patel:
“There’s a monkey in my mind swinging on a trapeze,
reaching back to the past or leaning into the future,
never standing still.
Sometimes I want to kill that monkey, shoot it square
between the eyes so I won’t have to think anymore
or feel the pain of worry.
But today I thanked her and she jumped down
straight into my lap, trapeze still swinging
as we sat still.”
#4: “People don’t want to be bad. They don’t want to be hurtful, deep down. Everybody’s got their leg in a trap if they’re causing Suffering. If you’re struggling with food addiction, or your own anger, or your own insecurity with other people, it’s not your fault — it’s genetics, or early history. It doesn’t mean you can’t find a way to wake up from it, it just means that up until this moment, the causes and conditions are in action”.
#5: Poem by Danna Faulds, “White Dove”:
In the shared quiet, an invitation arises like a
white dove lifting from a limb and taking flight.
Come and live in truth. Take your place in the
flow of grace. Draw aside the veil you thought
would always separate your heart from love.
All you ever longed for is before you in this moment
if you dare to draw in a breath and whisper “Yes.”
Kiki Smith: In Awe
My assistant Samantha Angel turned me onto the artist and sculptor Kiki Smith yesterday. Today, I’ve read and read about her. Fascinating woman. Nice video link here.

Kiki Smith Lying with the Wolf2001. Ink and pencil on paper, 72 1/4 x 88 inches. Photo by Kerry Ryan McFate. Courtesy PaceWildenstein, New York http://www.pacewildenstein.com

Copyright Kiki Smith

Copyright Kiki Smith
Early Voting
I went to the Green Hills Library today and voted early. It felt great. Honestly, as I was leaving, I got a little choked up. What a great country we live in. In my daily life, or reading the NY Times, or watching CNN, I can forget about that, but there’s something about going through this local voting process, with all those volunteers, and everyone so cordial and gratious there — it just makes me thankful that I live in the United States.
“What Tomorrow Brings”: education for Afghanistan girls
Very inspiring film. They want an education. Link here.
Settling into Penland School
Note: This post is not about “serious photography”. This post is about me falling in love with the North Carolina mountains, here at Penland School. I just shot snapshots all day, but loved it. I have no idea where I am, but it’s about an hour and a half drive, north of Asheville. The iPhone5 GPS woman just said, “Just keep driving; you’ll get there soon enough. There’s no hurry; there’s nowhere else to be; just enjoy the view, and stay present, and keep listening to that Tara Brach podcast”.
I started out this morning, after coffee, shooting black-and-white, but the fall color just made me cave in, and switch over to processing in color. The artists in residence here are serious working artists; we toured their studios today. Very impressive work, and an even more impressive work ethic.
(Note: Updated images, posted at the top here, after the initial blog post).

A group shot of our “Photography at Year Zero” class, with Dan Estabrook in the foreground, as the Zombie Slayer. Twelve of the nicest people to spend a week with. (Not pictured: Betsy, the studio assistant). Sadly, tomorrow is the final day, then I’ll spend some time helping a fellow artist, and then wander back to Nashville on Sunday.

I forgot about these two early images that were on my iPhone, from the first hour of the workshop, on Sunday night. The workshop was officially titled “Photography at Year Zero”, and Dan set the Zombie Theme all too convincingly.

Two images from today. No camera at all used today; the cardboard box camera got retired. Now I’m down to sunlight, watercolor paper, silver nitrate, sodium solution, inspiration, bright North Carolina sunshine to expose the plates, and a great teacher. Each image six minutes exposures, 11″x14″ salt prints.

Early this morning; nice light. Portrait of one of the guys in the theatre troupe that came through town. They began their trip in Boone, NC, and travel 15-20 miles per day, on bicycle and horse-pulled covered wagon. They performed here last night, and are headed to Spruce Pine tonight, and then back to Burnsville.

One of Dan’s pieces, in progress. You can see the white sheet, coated first with a dilution of salt, and then coated with Silver Nitrate, and then the leaf is inserted into the Contact Printing Frame. Here it sits, in the afternoon sun, outside the photo building, being “exposed” by the UV Light of the sky. Approximate exposure time is about thirty minutes, then it’s brought inside to the darkroom to be processed.

Dan’s hilarious concoction of boiling down Sumac leaves, in order to make a custom print developer, this afternoon. Pot clearly marked: “Photo Only”.

Rachel, doing her Tiger Woods impression — stepping back to line up her shot. In our low-tech, zombie world, we use stools for tripods, and rocks for leveling devices.

We started today by going on a long nature walk, through the fields and around the campus, talking to the farmers and petting the curious dogs, and gathering raw materials for photograms. Here’s one I made today — it’s been in the UV Oven for about a half hour, and you can see the background turning the color of dark Eggplant. Once the raw materials are removed from this Contact Printing Frame, I’ll develop the print, (and then want to immediately re-do it).

My camera for the week, so far — a corrogated shipping box for artist clay, with added duct tape. (Lots of it). The lens is a PBR can piece, with a tiny pinhole in it. 8.5″x11″ fiber paper is loaded into the camera, to make a paper negative. Then, from there, salt prints will be made by contact printing. (Then, we’ll probably go kill a wild animal, and eat the raw flesh; that’s how primitive the photography is).

Rear of the covered wagon for The Rural Academy Theatre. They just “came through town” yesterday, and stopped over for a performance here tonight at 815pm. Musicians and bicyclists and horses. Nothing surprises me here at Penland — of course a traveling circus just “comes through town” and stays with us.

The view today, across from The Pines. Gorgeous warm day, sunny. I tried a self portrait here, but my fourteen minute exposure was too long, and it just blew out. There’s more to that story, but we’ll leave it at that.

An undercover espionage photo of Dan Estabrook, and his assistant Jimmy in the background, leaving the Photo building. All I know is that there’s a plan to build our own cameras from scratch, and then mount lenses onto them, (maybe), and then do callotypes and salt prints. We’re headed back to the 1800′s. No darkroom involved; only sunlight, contact frames, silver nitrate, and water. There’s also a Zombie Theme involved. More later about that….

Main courtyard of the school. Kids playing, and girl playing with Crickett.

Gorgeous portrait painting, just hanging over in the corner of the wood shop. (Yes, I’d like to buy this painting).

Sample piece from Rachel Meginnes, who’s a three-year Artist in Residence here. Very strong work. See more of her work at http://www.plainweavestudios.com
Lisa Donovan’s Buttermilk Road Sunday Supper #1
Lisa Donovan kicked off the first of a series of suppers last night, at the home of Todd Burkett, in East Nashville. Multiple courses, and multiple wines. Horses, labs, and people filled Todd’s home. You can read about it on Lisa’s blog here. Jaime Miller also was there as incredible support for Lisa. Really nice night. I liked Coco, the horse.
Gallery Tour: Atlanta
Yesterday, fellow photographer Tamara Reynolds and I drove to Atlanta, on some kind of madcap gallery rounds. Three galleries and a museum in two and a half days. Slated: The High Museum, for the Picture New York show, and the Picture The South show, and also the Richard Misrach show in the basement; Jackson Fine Art to see Masao Yamamoto, Mona Kuhn, and William Christenberry’s barns; Marcia Wood; and Jennifer Schwartz. There were also two Gerhard Richter “squeegee” paintings at The High; an added bonus; also, a huge (very dark) Jeff Wall image.
Also, this morning, I forced her to stop at R. Thomas Grill for my hippie breakfast, and to see the birds and the flowers outside. There was this one parrot that would lay his head against the front wall of the cage, so that you could reach through and scratch the top of his head.

Roy Lichtenstein sculpture, in the courtyard of The High Museum.

R. Thomas Grill, on Peachtree, my old health-food standby. Birds in cages, and flowers in pots. Paradise, right in the middle of the city.

Abstract folk art piece.

Detail of abstract folk art piece

Inside The High Museum.

Reflection of Tamara Reynolds, in one of the giant Jeff Wall prints, at The High.

Reflection of me in one of the large abstracts. This is the way I’ve felt the last few days.
Run The Other Way
I saw a link on Facebook yesterday, posted by Jan Ellis, about the massive increase in the number of photographs being taken in the last few years. This is of course due to the cell phone cameras and other P/S digital consumer cameras. But it does make me wonder about the mind-numbing effect of seeing that many images, all around me. And also the effect that it has on society at large. For me, as a photographer for over thirty years, it sends a chill up my spine, and makes me want to run the other way. Below is a key graph from the article, and here is the URL for the complete story.
I start thinking about alternative approaches to image-making at times like this. People like Adam Fuss, Richard Learoyd, Abelardo Morell, the wet-plate practitioners, and John Chiara’s camera built on a utility trailer, Chris McCaw’s 30×40 inch view camera on location, or maybe the craziest of all — Dennis Manarchy’s mammoth view camera that rides in a trailer.
I don’t know all the details, but the fascinating thing about Learoyd’s work is that there is no camera involved. It’s basically a pinhole camera, with him in one room, and the model in the other, and he tapes “positive paper” to the wall. No camera, no negative — the paper is sent straight to the lab, and every image is a 1/1 original. Same thing with much of Adam Fuss’ work; most of his are photograms — no camera involved. Same is true for Morell’s work — he rents a hotel room across the street from a famous scene, and then blacks out the room, and then turns the hotel room into a giant pinhole camera! Stunning work from all these men mentioned.

© Adam Fuss. All Rights Reserved.
South Beach characters
Today, on Ocean Avenue, in South Beach. We met him on the sidewalk, heading north. He danced in the street, and made himself known to the tourists. He’s either a female cheerleader or a Playboy bunny; I’ll leave it up to you.
The second portrait was a very striking woman who was walking down Ocean Avenue this afternoon. Her outfit was pink; her hair was blonde; but the heart-shaped glasses just struck me — like some scene out of a Garry Winogrand thing on Hollywood Boulevard, circa 1965. She was nice enough to stop for a portrait; I got off about a dozen frames. The glasses are just great, and I love the whole vintage feel of the light.

Heart-Shaped Glasses -- Ocean Avenue, Miami Beach.
Humane Society Benefit: Hutton Hotel
Attended the Humane Society Benefit last night. Loads of fun. Imagine a giant hotel ballroom, filled with two hundred dogs, in costume, plus a doggie fashion show. At one point, leaving the elevator, it was like a Fellini dream — an elegant hotel lobby, but everyone in the lobby had a dog on a leash, and was dressed to the nines.
I’m sorry; none of these pictures are in focus or exposed correctly. It was just chaos in there; I had to just snap away and hope I got something.
Art History: Can-Opener for the Mind
So I’m taking some night classes at Watkins, just for fun, and to open up my head. The main class is this excellent class taught by Tom Williams, called Contemporary Art History, and then soon, begins a bookmaking class, and then a silkscreen and drypoint class. I’m just on fire with it all. Especially Art History, because of the way Tom sets up the context for how all these painters were influenced by WWII, and by the painters that came before them. Here is the textbook; a great resource.
Anyway, so I’m gutting my basement, to set up a printmaking area, and I came down the steps the other day and was reminded of these bizarre red/green blocks that are all over my 1930′s old house. Most of them are faded away, but the frame above shows them. Maybe another artist lived here at one time; maybe just some children, but I love these faded grid blocks. I also love the scratched floor in the basement.
Here are some Google Image links to some of the painters we’ve studied so far. Google Images does a pretty good job, but there’s no guarantee that every painting is accurate; who knows how the metadata is coded. The links to each artist are in bold type below.


© Arshile Gorky
Cut-up Polaroids.
We set up a temporary studio in my den last night. Was nice to shoot real film again, and actually touch something, (rather than everything digital). The night started out as an Art Night, but turned into Chili Night, and then Campfire Night, and then Music Night, and then College Football Night, and finally, Giant Art Book Night. Really fun.
My mother’s new friend
My mother has a new ritual — she puts a chocolate chip cookie by the front door each day, and she waits for the little girl across the street to get home from school. When she sees the car pull into the driveway, she takes the cookie over, as a gift. They’ve struck up quite the friendship.
Woody Guthrie’s “New Years Rulin’s” (for 1943)
I’m a Woody Guthrie fan, (and Dylan, Seeger, Jack Elliott, and most anything Folk). I saw this a few days ago. He wrote this around 1943; amazing how many of the things still hold true today. Click image to enlarge.
Christmas: Kentucky
Some casual snapshots from a fun day in Kentucky yesterday. It was a gorgeous day; warm and sunny. All the family met at my brother Robert’s home; a menu of grilled pork, baked beans, corn pudding, and Amber’s homemade cookies for Santa. My niece is growing like a weed.
Jen Deaderick’s Birthday Party
A small, sweet private birthday party for Jen Deaderick last night at The Basement. Great food, great cupcakes, and a custom playlist from 1973. Green Pea Salon was well-represented; and Kelly Mason showed his impressive collection of photos from his iPhone. (Don’t ask). Other attendees: Kristin Russell; the Reverend Charles Jackson; Amy Patterson; Allison Inman; Lisa A York; Erika Wright; Mindy Grimes. There were several heated discussions about “The Descendants“, and sleepless nights.

Kelly is infatuated with Jen's ribs. I have no idea the story behind this. But weirdly, I like this picture.
My visit to PhotoNOLA: New Orleans
Just returned from PhotoNOLA in New Orleans, last night. It was a whirlwind trip — they keep you running, non-stop. Day One started with a video workshop with Dave Anderson. He’s super-talented, and definitely a one-man-band. He knows his gear. Day Two was a nice day with Mary Virginia Swanson, titled “Bringing Your Prints to the Wall”. The first half of the day was chock-full of great information from Swannie; the second half was a panel discussion. Personally, I could have done the entire day with just Swannie talking. She’s enthusiastic, and forthcoming, and a wealth of knowledge, and exudes very positive energy to everyone around her. To me, she’s the best in the business. Time well spent, for sure. Day Three was a trip to Joshua’s gallery on Chartres Street, to see Josephine Sacabo’s new photo-polymer gravure work, and some gorgeous Salgado prints on the second floor. Day Four was the highlight though — a full demo of the gravure process by Josephine Sacabo, at her studio, and then a wet-plate collodion demo at HomeSpace Gallery. Unrelated a bit, but I found this work at Joshua’s gallery. I was not really moved by the prints, but I was impressed by the imagination on their site.
Next year, I’m signing up early, in order to have work reviewed. (I’ll also go a little lighter on the horseradish, at Acme and Felix’s).
Many photos below; just keep scrolling down.
Links within this post:
* Photo NOLA 2011
* Gayle Stevens
* Euphus Ruth
* Dave Anderson
* HomeSpace Gallery
* Mary Virginia Swanson
* Bruce Schultz
* Josephine Sacabo
* Joshua: A Gallery
* Acme Oyster
* Felix’s
* Jenny Sampson
* Heidi Kirkpatrick
* Jody Ake
* Quinn Jacobson
* Dale Bernstein
[ Note/Update #1, after original post: Several issues that I have with collodion. Maybe we can open up a conversation about it in the Comments Section below:
* The limitation of the size of the final. I guess Gayle Stevens dealt with that by combining multiple frames together, to get a larger final image. A full-plate image, if left pure and uncopied, can only be about 8"x10". To me, in this huge-print-reality of the current art world, the collodion just seems physically disadvantaged.
* The low ASA of the collodion pretty much forces a portrait exposure to be between two seconds and six seconds. This, to me, forces a very distinct similarity of portraiture, no matter the photographer.
* I just wonder if anyone has discovered a way to shoot a digital file "in", but then somehow do a copy stand or some other way to then rephotograph the image onto collodion, to eliminate the whole "hold still for two seconds issue". ]

Meticulous step-by-step instructions for Josephine's plates. Don't bother copying it; it only works for her specific process.
Nice mention by Rachel: Photography Post blog
Rachel Hulin wrote up a nice little article today about the MyDayWith project, and John Minnicks, and his customized Graflex camera. I was hoping there’d be a mention that the legendary David Burnett is using one too.
Starting new blog; side project
Today, I made public the first stage of a new blog. This is an experiment to loosen up, to shoot with less gear, (to shoot with more Polaroid), and to connect more on a human level. And since I’ve been working out of town mostly in the last two years, it’s also an attempt to reconnect with the interesting people in my home of Nashville, Tennessee.
I haven’t added the stories yet in some of these posts, and some of the posts in the new blog were stolen from this blog, in order to show potential photo subjects what I wanted to do. So this blog might be a tad slow in the next few weeks, as I put all my attention into this new project, called MyDayWith.com.
Sample page below. Maybe, in time, this will evolve into a printed magazine or book.
Wonderful Baby
Today, I worked with a sweet mother and tiny tiny baby. This image below is just a part of a much larger image that’ll come later. I shot it with this tiny ringlight; wanted it to feel like a suspended reality, almost like still in the womb.
Deviled onions
I made a salad a few weeks ago. Cut an onion in half, and set the other half in the window sill. It stayed there for forever. It started changing. It started turning into a face. It started talking to me when I’d get up and make coffee in the morning. Funny how things will start to take on a life on their own. Two nights ago, I started photographing it; it was becoming human. Reminded me of that scene in Coen Brothers film with William Burroughs, with the typewriter, when things started coming alive.
I thought it was going to be part of a project that we’re all working on, but I don’t think it’ll make the cut. Even though I find the face pretty interesting. (Full retouching disclosure: it had the one ear, on its own, and I cloned it and made a second ear).
I shot this with this old funky Nikon f1.2 lens that I bought recently. I don’t even mount it on the camera — I just hold it up to the camera body, about a half inch away. It’s amazing how it still makes a picture, even though the lens is not even touching the camera. I just move the lens in and out, with my left hand, to focus it. Surprises me that it doesn’t flare more, since there’s light entering the mirror box all around the lens opening. Just move the lens around with your hand; your own homemade tilt lens.























































































































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