Revisiting my Hometown: Childhood Memories

Our grocery story building (now a dance studio)
Yesterday, I drove up to visit my mother and go to lunch. She’s 78. As we’re driving through town, I looked over at the building that my father used to lease, when I was a kid. We had a chain of grocery stores, similar to a Mapco, or SevenEleven. Right in the main drag of Bowling Green, Kentucky. From the time I was twelve years old or so, I worked in this building, bagging groceries, and later running the cash register. It’s so strange when you spend so much time in a building, and then you come back later, and it’s another type of business. What caught my eye, as we drove by yesterday, was that the entire length of all the plate glass windows — maybe thirty running feet — was made up of these trophies. Very surreal, even if I’d never spent any time there. There were these red curtains covering all the plate glass, so that added this odd mystery to the building. What was going on inside? No sign of any sort; just red curtains. At first glance, it came off more like a porn place than a dance studio. But then, these trophies in the window, running off into eternity.
I’ve always liked that Winogrand quote, about how he liked to wait a good while to edit a project, to let the related emotions wear off of the images. Like they were attached to the photos or something, but eventually, they would fade away. He didn’t want his memories of the being there to affect how he judged the photos. For me, looking at this image of this building, with these trophies, this picture means SO MUCH to me, but it’s because I spent about seven formative years of my life there, learning how to talk to people, and how to show up for work on time, and how to stock a grocery shelf. Yet, I can see how someone detached, unrelated, would look at this photo, and think WTF? it’s just a brick building.
I can remember back to maybe the mid 60’s, and in this small town, there was a very old law on the books — they called it “The Blue Law” for some reason. It required every business to be closed on Sunday. (Small town in the south). But my father saw it otherwise, and he began to open this store on Sunday, and then the Christians clamped down, so the word got out that the Sheriff would be there to arrest him when he opened on one particular Sunday. The local TV news crew was there to photograph it. He turned the key to open the door, and they arrested him on the spot. Seemed highly dramatic and scary at the time, but now, seems hilarious.
So then, going home on I-65, I look over and see this classic mobile home, sitting alone in a large field, but decorated with Christmas lights. This golden light coming out of the blue darkness. All that was missing was the required Trans-Am, or ‘69 Camero, parked out front. Somewhere in the distance, a banjo was playing.

Mobile Home, right off of 65.
j’aime beaucoup ce mobile home, seul sur la terre, les éclairages de noël donnent une atmosphère spéciale à la photo.
I love this mobile home, alone on earth, Christmas lights provide a special atmosphere to the picture.
I get that same feeling each time I go home and drive around the old stomping grounds. I find myself kinda bummed out that the old “high end” department store is now condos. And in the same department store parking lot is a bunch of high end row houses. Like they were just dropped in there. I just want to say “People do you realize you just bought a house in a parking lot!”
But the one thing that I always think about is a song my buddy wrote called “Same Town, Not The Same Place”.
So true…same town…not the same place.
I loved the “Blue Law” story. When I last revisited my Muhlenberg County roots they were all up in arms because you could “legally” buy booze in Central City. I bet there were no sales on Sunday.
Speaking of your family business, do you remember the time you brought some B&W film into the college photo lab and needed to figure out how to process it? I think there had been a robbery at one of the stores and you needed to process the film to get photos of the bad guys. Didn’t you end up getting prints to the police?
I, too, have had the same experience visiting my hometown. I grew up in “Spamtown USA” (aka Austin, MN, the hometown of Hormel) where Hormel was a big part of the culture, whether your family worked directly for the big H or not. Now when I go back, it’s strange to see how all of the Hormel buildings and subsidiaries have grown and matured, while everything else in the town has fallen behind the times and seems run down. The main street is almost entirely barren as nearly every company has been put out of business, and no one feels it is worth it to try to open their own. I’ve been wanting to visit and start a photo project documenting the decay but keep putting it off. I should take your lead and go visit family there and get it started.
Thanks for sharing!
I’m trying to make the connection between the memory and the trailer sitting in the field. I think the banjo is made up, and maybe that is the truth of it. Memories are unreal, things we love. That photo could be the cover of a Richard Ford novel, or maybe his mentor, Raymond Carver. But the money is on Pollard now. You are the most wonderful photographer, able to reconcile the postmodern sterility and romantic desire. You walk the tightrope well enough to win both sides. This vignette shows that you can be a pretty good storyteller, too.
I’ve never been down South or your neck of the woods, but American osmosis tells me to expect trailers.
I’d take it any day!
I love the trailer shot
I love the story attached to the images. My own childhood neighborhood had gravel roads but there was one area of tarred roads where the newer homes sat. As kids we called that area “The Tarvy”.
I think the first image of your old family store is enhanced by the story behind it. It gives me the sad lonely feeling of an era gone forever.
The second image is fantastic all by itself. That also lends itself to a lost era, but for me personally it also portrays freedom. Freedom from the modern status quo. Freedom from a society moving on ahead to fast. And economic freedom. A melancholy beacon of light that reaches out to me.
I’m thrilled to find you have a blog.
Je suis un inconditionnel de votre travail, je connais votre site depuis longtemps et je découvre seulement maintenant votre blog, quel plaisir !
Merci pour ce partage, merci pour vos photos, merci pour ce voyage.
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